Things could be pretty terrible, and they probably are.
But that terrible moment can be easily overturned just by jammin’ out to some good music or looking at pictures of cats; or turtles.
It always is.
BECAUSE YOU’RE ALIVE, MOTHERFUCKER! :)
Times are tough.
Tough not because of personal matters. Tough because I really suck at managing time.
Oh, time. Time, time, time. You’re a bitch.
But I love you. I love you, but I got to get to know you better.
blerghhhhhhh. OK. Back to work.
I feel like I get so caught up in looking toward the future and start panicking about “all the things I need to get accomplished”.
I think it’s now dawning on me that I do this because I’m actually really scared about the future.
Huh, who would have known?
So glaringly obvious but not for someone engrossed with justification over justification in a spiraling helplessness that all people must do that too right?
Take me back to the present, crazy mind.
Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa I’m so lucky I’m not single at this point of my life.
All I want to do is keep eating Thai curry pizza while marathoning through Regular Show.
Yeah…sorry I just don’t like getting rudely interrupted while having a self loathing period justified by “it’s winter break and da weekend so f u”.
K THX BACK TO EATING. NOM NOM NOM
IT’S FUNNY how everything in life repeats itself in a wave, or bricks shitting on you all at once or at your face.
NO NO NO never is it a gradual trickle of events here and there, it just comes at you once from every angle making sure to overwhelm you. LOLOLOL
oh well, bring it on man. Just gonna brush that dirt off ma shoulderrrrrrrrr. sup jay-Z
I know this is going to sound really petty and rather pathetic but here goes…
IT FEELS SO LIBERATING DEACTIVATING FACEBOOK!!!
I AM A LIAR THAT REACTIVATED WITHIN MATTER OF MOMENTS BECAUSE OF A HILARIOUS GIRL DRESSED UP AS OUR NATION’S FLAG ON ELECTION DAY AT SCHOOL.
On top of that I got rid of Instagram on my phone!
I’m just really excited for what this can do for me in terms of growth and the issue with idle time. More importantly though is the issue of bragging without realizing it.
I simply just want to share the gorgeous food I’ve been eating off the yin yang on Facebook and Instagram, but after awhile I realized it’s purely out of, “hey, look at me!”
And maybe now I’ll redirect my focus to a food tumblr I was supposed to be working on with a dear friend…ha, ha, ha.
Either way, just saying I feel like a lot of opportunities are more obtainable without obsessing over other people’s lives and what I can display for others.
And hey, more attention towards bettering this blog and writing in general.
HAPPY, I AM. :)
I can’t get angry or bitter toward people just trying to find their little “niche” in this big world filled with amazing individuals.
I can’t get bitter at someone desperately trying too hard to be unique, knowing that it’s some sort of weird defense mechanisms “hipsters” use. Har dee har har.
I can’t be frustrated with people that pity themselves without realizing it and then blaming everything on everyone else when they are entitled to pity themselves after all that.
I can’t get bored with people that don’t share the same interests or opinions as me; I would need to get off my too tall pedestal.
I can’t always be thinking in the back of my mind how this world consists of so very little interesting and dare I say it…worthy people.
That’s elitist and wrong of me, and I’m the huge jackass at the end of the day thinking I’m so high and mighty with no one understanding me.
I just need to remind myself people ultimately want to be appreciated, to be loved whether or not they admit it and decide to hide it with undesirable traits.
We are all so scrutinized by one another, and that will probably never change.
However, I can always damn well try to remind myself the next time I feel this bitter shadow, hindering every worth this person has accomplished.